A person with depression, how vulnerable you can be, and how powerful you can be.
In 2017, I once witnessed a depressed patient leaping off the 17th floor and ending his life.
At that time, I just got out of the predicament of depression, but when I was happy, It burst my bubble。
At that time, this incident dealt a great blow to me, and I fell into fear and anxiety for a week.
During that week, I kept thinking about this question: Will I also have this ending?
In 2018, I received a call from my teacher. He said that he never believed that depression can be painful enough to make a person give up his life, but he witnessed such a painful fact with his own eyes.
This made me think about another question: Are we ourselves too vulnerable, or is depression really terrible? Scary enough to let us choose to give up life to be free from it?
I chose to commit suicide when I was most vulnerable
I used to implement a suicide plan because I couldn't bear the pain caused by depression. I wanted to use this method to free myself from the pain of depression.
I thought of many ways of self-closing, and finally I chose to jump into the river in the middle of a winter night.
Halfway through the plan, I realized that I didn't even have the courage to die.
At that time, I was the most vulnerable me in the entire course of depression.
However, after that fragility, I am stronger than ever.
On the way to fight depression, I told myself how vulnerable I can be, and how strong I can be.
Sometimes, it's not because depression is too terrible, but because we are too fragile and our hearts are full of despair.
In depression, I couldn't sleep all night, and couldn't even complete the simplest actions like washing my face and brushing my teeth.
In depression, I have been attacked by myself countless times and feel that I am worthless. I feel that being alive is a kind of pain and suffering, and death is a relief.
When I was in depression, I had never dared to stand in front of the window. I had the urge to jump down when I saw the window. I seemed to have the courage to live, but I had to work hard to live.
In depression, I was criticized and abused by many people who did not understand depression. Don't abandon me as a mental illness by many friends. The feeling of helplessness, sadness, and being alone is really speechless!
But in the end, I survived, or from the weakest, or from the depression!
We are not vulnerable, we live harder than anyone else
Back to that question: Are we ourselves too vulnerable, or is depression really terrible?
When we are most vulnerable, that is, when depression is the most terrible.
Once we are strong, depression will be fragile in front of us.
The process of overcoming depression is actually a process of fighting between a strong you and a depressed you.
The stronger you are, the more vulnerable you are to depression, and the stronger you are constantly growing.
There is such an entrepreneur whom we all respect very much. He suffered from severe depression during the most difficult time of the business and tried to commit suicide several times.
Later, he overcame numerous difficulties and hacked all the way to create a communications empire that attracted the attention of the whole world.
He has come out of severe depression three times and defeated cancer twice.
How vulnerable he was when he was in depression, how strong he was when he returned from hell.
He is Mr. Ren Zhengfei, the founder of Huawei.
Today's Huawei, like its creator, Mr. Ren Zhengfei, is not born to be strong, but to forge ahead through hardships, overcome all difficulties, and become great!
The strong you are constantly growing
A person with depression is not born to be strong, but in the process of constant efforts to overcome depression, becoming stronger and stronger.
How vulnerable a person with depression can be, and just how powerful he can be.
The strong you are constantly growing, and we depressed patients are living harder than anyone else.
It is the baptism of these sufferings and painful experiences that we have gone through, working hard to get out of the process of depression, and shaping our strong personality.
We have to choose to continue to be strong in the face of suffering
I remember a netizen named Sanxia once said such a sentence, he said: "Yes, I am pretending to be depression, I am pretentious, hypocritical, if you change to depression, can you still say these things? ?"
This sentence speaks the aspirations of many depression patients!
I have also said to many friends: "You can think that I am weak, you can think that I think too much, even you can think that I am mentally ill, you only see my fragility, but you will never know that I have How powerful, because you have never been depressed."
No one is inherently strong, but no one is inherently vulnerable.
We are both strong and weak!
It's just that some people choose to be weak in the face of suffering, and some people choose to remain strong in the face of suffering.
How vulnerable a person with depression can be, and just how powerful it can be. When we choose to stay strong in the face of depression, depression will be vulnerable in front of us!
I am a classmate Xiaoguan. I used to be a fragile depression patient, and now I am a fighter against depression.
If you are also troubled by depression, you can follow me.
Let us work hard together to help more depression patients get out of depression and overcome depression!
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